This title describes my struggle most days. Years ago I prayed God would keep me pliable, this prayer was birthed out of ministry to people who could or would not tolerate change. Unless it was in a sphere outside of their arena. My desire to stay expectant for God to move, change, and lead, overwhelmed my need for the known and personal comfort. (Or so I thought.) I've said, "we all love change as long as it's not going to affect us." My heart is to prevent my life from being so set in my own ways that I become immovable to God
God in His wisdom heard my prayers as always. He has shaken my life, upset my norm, and lead me to a season of faith on a level I've never known before. Candidly, I am struggling. Most days I feel like I'm drowning, life seems above my head. I've had days of great faith, and days of complete meltdowns and despair. The picture is a mess.
I have walked this refining road before with God. Back in January 2011 My son Gabriel was fighting for his life. I remember struggling with fear. One morning God lead me to Isaiah 35, it was so powerful I marked and dated the chapter. Today I was lead back to that same chapter. The subtitle for this passage is "Joy of the Redeemed". I don't know about you but those three words put a giant smile on my face and an exhale in my spirit. Please read the whole chapter after you read this post.
"Strengthen the feeble hands,
steady the knees that give way;
say to those with fearful hearts,
“Be strong, do not fear;
your God will come,
he will come with vengeance;
with divine retribution
he will come to save you.”
Then will the eyes of the blind be opened
and the ears of the deaf unstopped.
Then will the lame leap like a deer,
and the mute tongue shout for joy.
Water will gush forth in the wilderness
and streams in the desert."
"When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze."
While the impression is my knees are giving way; I love the reminder He is coming. It is this knowledge I cling too, as I pass through the waters, rivers, and fires of life.
Life is Beautiful!