A Perfectionists Melt-Down

by Gina Franklin

Have you ever read a book and had one sentence render you to tears? That happened to me this morning. I was reading Lysa Terkeurst's devotional, Craving God; she wrote, "After all, sometimes I act as though Jesus can work miracles for other people, but not for me. Not with my issues."

Psalm 77:11 "I will remember the deeds of the Lord;

            yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago."


This statement left my face with tear stains and my heart aching with the gaping truth that I am so there. IT is so easy for to believe and pray for the needs of others. To remember the miracles that have already been given in our lives. And believe me God has done some pretty awesome things for us. And yet, as I sit here and type these words; I know that deep down in my heart; I am at a place that I fail to believe, to really believe, for the miracles to be mine. It's like a fear of failure and of disappointment render my faith crippled and gimping at best.  Not the faith that God is real, or even faithful. But that I can measure up, that I can dare to pray on a level that miracles will happen. That when it is all said and done that what little I have to offer it will be enough.

Do you ever feel like that?

I spoke at a conference several years back called The Enough Conference. Let me tell you that you and I, on our own are not enough. We are not perfect and will never achieve perfection; no matter how hard we try. But when we surrender what little we have into the anointing of God it becomes something MIRACULOUS. Each one of you reading this blog has gifts, talents, and strengths. There is value within all of us. Tie that to Gods power, his anointing, his Will; and now you will see things that never could be-begin to happen. So yes I have these fears, feelings, and doubts that rage with in me. Yes, I have to force myself to believe that I am enough, not because of anything I am or can achieve; but because of Jesus living inside of me. Because He says, I am enough.

Ephesians 1:4 "For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight."


Life is Beautiful!